I think the hardest part of being a parent is watching your only daughter grow up in a Christian environment, only to totally go against everything she has been taught her whole life. I am grief-stricken. She has already ignored the moral teachings she was taught, although she was a virgin until she was 28 years old. That is no longer important to her. Neither is obeying God.
As I watch her in this latest relationship, outside her own race, she is succumbing to that age-old smooth-talking, flesh-satiating, lying snake who tempts her, uses her, woos her into believing that he is "the one." Meanwhile, she is supporting him, as he has not had a real job for nearly a year. He recently began working part-time, but not to her gain or support. And he is a demonized liar, I'm sad to say. I have caught him in so many lies, just to me, I wonder how many lies he has filled her ears with. But she is sooooo blind! And it breaks my heart to watch his deception, to see his anger roiling in him when I confront him about his wrong-doing, his blatant lies. He says he is a Christian, but it is not evident in his life. There is absolutely no Godly fruit. No Christian would continue to fornicate, especially after being confronted about it by the girl's mother! No, he is not walking the Lord's way, he is lying about that, too. But he has already snared my daughter, hook, line and sinker, into his world of faux reality.
My prayers for her and him have been continuous. God spoke a short word for me to give to her... He said they are unequally yoked. But she did not receive it. She has been sick in her body quite often during this relationship, always extremely tired. In the past God has used illness to reach her. But either she is not heeding or hearing His message to her, or she is choosing to ignore it. And she has always been sensitive to God's Spirit. So my prayers for her will continue, as my Lord never gives up on us, so I will not, either. She is and always has been my gift from God, when it seemed I would never be blessed with another child. Still I grieve for her future if she stays with this much younger than her man-child. He definitely has not proven himself to be a man. She has always wanted a child, now she has one, a full-grown one that somehow severely lacks intelligence and common sense.
I must count my blessings, though, as she has been a great help to me as I've grown older and needed some help. But that, too, has grown less and less. At least she has not done drugs or been a heavy drinker, as some young people do. For that I am very grateful. And I believe that one day she will see the folly of her ways and return to her knowledge and experience of living her life with Jesus Christ. God's Word always is true. And God always hears a mother's prayers. Thank You, Lord. I am ever so grateful to always be
Under Your Wings.
